People always say they wished they had my motivation. Let me tell you a secret. My motivation has been non existent for the last 1 1/2 weeks. Like putting workout clothes on and not pushing play, to pushing play the next day and turning it off after 15 minutes, to waking up and thinking, “I don’t want to do my mom duties today”, to putting on church clothes, then climbing back under my blankets in bed and not caring if we were late.
Here’s another secret. What if motivation doesn’t exist? What if you are waiting around for something that doesn’t exist? What if it’s a decision and not motivation?
There are going to be times where we have to FORCE ourselves because we made a decision to keep showing up for ourselves. There are many times where I decide to push play and try, when I force myself to put on my “God time” Spotify list and open my devotional, when I pack my kids’ lunches and smile at them even though the smile might be forced.
Life stresses have caught up to me. We don’t go through life without hard times. But we still get to make decisions. We make decisions that make the hard times harder or we make decisions that help us continue to move forward into a better mindset.
I have so many blessings in my life and I know the seasons of stress will come and go. I’m thankful I’ve learned the tools to better get through the valleys and have a good understanding of God’s promises.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2