Brave

I’m sitting in a beautiful church, surrounded by silence, my iced coffee, my computer, and my new devotional, 100 Days To Brave.  As I’m reading “Day One” about fear and bravery, it hits me.  I have done some things way outside my comfort zone in the last few years.  I didn’t think I was being brave. In fact, I felt like it all just happened without me choosing…like God just came behind me and pushed.  Or really, like I’m just trying to do what I need to do in that moment.  Yet as I look back, it seems like everything makes sense the way it happened when I see where I am today.

I was sad, crying, and feeling lost.  God answered with a business I didn’t even realize existed and never in a million years thought would be something I would do well at.  Then I had to be super brave when I turned in my resignation letter, following a vision from God to quit my job and pursue this business further.  He has a  purpose for all of us.

I walked away from my job.  Not long after, I was struggling with how to help my oldest son through really strong emotions and self limiting beliefs, bullying, scary words coming out of his mouth that often made me cry in worry at night.  I made the almost random and quick decision one night to pull him out of school and begin homeschooling, knowing something had to change.  I’m not a good teacher.  I never pictured myself homeschooling. It just seemed to happen.  Now I see him changing into the kid I know he is before my eyes.

Then today, I’m sitting in a church.  In God’s home. I have 6 quiet and amazing hours to pursue this passion God has handed me while my son is laughing, enjoying learning, and instantly bonding with a group of kids I feel like he was meant to be with…kids that are increasing his confidence, kids that make him feel comfortable.

Suddenly it hits me.  I don’t know the end purpose, but the journey God is carving isn’t coincidence. It’s not coincidence that when I was going down a hole of feeling lost and without purpose, I took a leap of faith into this business that showed up into my life overnight.  It’s not coincidence that God spoke to me so many times showing me the next step, and when I finally took that scary step, it was almost perfect timing to allow me to be available to pull my child out of school when I felt it needed to be done.

It’s not by coincidence that I now get to sit in GOD’S HOUSE while I work on my business today, feeling his presence constantly working in all areas of my life.

“For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.” ~Isaiah 41:13

When we do brave things, God unfolds our purpose and path before our eyes.

I saw the things I did as crazy.  But really they were brave.

“Brave people don’t stop hearing the whispers of fear.

Being brave is hearing that voice of fear in your head, but saying, ‘Okay, but the truth is, God made me on purpose and for a purpose.'” ~100 Days To Brave

It takes listening to those quiet whispers and gentle tugs on my heart and following them when my loud brain and society is telling me that it is crazy.  But God is on the other side of that crazy waiting to guide you.  God and my greatest dreams are on the other side of that fear.  So I just have to keep being brave.

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